hüzünlü şeyler

私が自分の不幸について書いていることに構うな。
それを笑うな。
でも，私が笑顔でいるとき，それが偽りであるかもしれないということに皆気づいていない。

"Sen bakma bu kadar hüzünlü şeyler yazdığıma, ben çok gülerim. Ve gülerken hiç kimse yalan olduğunu anlayamaz."

Cemal Süreya

本

長い間読んでいたJean-Paul Rouxの本「歴史のトルコ人」をやっと読み終えました。
それは私にはあまりに複雑でした。
本のほとんどを思い出しません。

Sonunda uzun zamandır elimde dolaşıp duran kitabı Jean-Paul Roux'un Türk Tarihi adlı kitabını bitirebildim. Kitap, tarihin en eski Türk milleti ile başlayıp Türkiye Cumhuriyeti'nin kuruluşuna kadar geliryor. Bir çok isim, uygarlık, tarih.... Çoğunu anımsamıyorum bile. Arada bir kaç kez tekrarlanmış bölümler de var. Tarih bir ileri bir geri gidip geliyor. O nedenle biraz karmaşık buldum. Ve yazar bazen tarafsız gibi görünmeye çalışsa da bazı zamanlarda bu tarafsızlığını Türkler aleyhine kaybediyor. "En büyük Türkler" havasında biri değilimdir ama yine de bazen yazarın kendi doğru kabule ttiği görüşünden sıyrılmak istemediği kanaatine vardım.

Sana Sarılınca by Cem Adrian

like a small light that breaks the darkness.
like wings that flutter in the storm.
like a butterfly that doesn't afraid of getting wet.
I loved you... I loved you..
like a ship made of paper in the ocean.
like a bud that bloomed without waiting for sprig.
like a child who loved for the first time.
I loved you. I loved you.
When I hold you I thought it will be better. will be better
When I belived you I thought it will be over. will be over.
When I am tied to you I thought I won't fall, won't fall
I am all in pieces, my heart is all over the place
When I hold you I thought it will be better. will be better
When I belived you I thought it will be over. will be over.
When I am tied to you I thought I won't fall, won't fall
I am all in pieces, my heart is all over the place

Cem Adrian - İnce Buz Üstünde Yürüyorum

Lyrics, Music, Arrangment: Cem Adrian

There is still something inside me, as if it is hope 
- Hala içimde bir şey, sanki umuda benziyor.
it tells me to not forget, I am keeping silent 
- Bana unutma diyor susuyorum.
There, from far away, a weakening sound  asking me to not give up 
- Orda uzakta bir yerde, artık zayıflayan bir ses bana vazgeçme diyor.
I hear
- Duyuyorum.
in a dream, slowly and silent I am walking over a thin ice 
- Bir rüya içinde, ağır ve sessizce, ince buz üstünde yürüyorum.
there are walls in front of me, the ties on my eyes, I am passing by fire 
- Önümde duvarlar, gözlerimde bağlar, alevler içinden geçiyorum.
how many times the life would hit and break 
- Hayat daha kaç kere vurup, kaç kere kıracak...
how many times it would destroy, how many times it would hurl 
- Kaç kere yıkıp, kaç kere savuracak...
how many times my heart would beat, how many times it would stop 
- Kalbim daha kaç kere çarpıp, kaç kere duracak...
how many times it would believe, how many times it would forget 
- Kaç kere inanıp, kaç kere unutacak.

傷

パソコンをたくさん使います。

 

だから私の右手と腕を痛めました。

そのため、パソコンをあまり使えません。 

買い物

 

昨晩、仕事の後で、妹とデパートに買い物に行きました。

まず私たちは夕食をとりました。

買い物は好きではありません。

そういうわけで、あまり買い物には行きません。 今はシーズンの終わりから、モールの店でバーゲンがあります。 Ｔシャツをたくさん買いました。

思い出

通りから遊んでいる子供たちの声が聞こえます。

自分の子供の頃を思い出しました。。

夏休みで真夜中まで家に帰らず、私たちは外で遊んでいました。

 

Children are playing outside.

They remind me my childhood.

We wouldn’t go home and we would play till midnight in summer holidays

外国語

 

日本語と韓国語とフランス語を覚えようとしています。

まだそれらのいずれも習得できていません。

アラビア語も勉強したいです。

どれを最初に学ぶべきかわかりません。

Ustam ve Ben, Elif Şafak

The story begins with an elephant sitter guy's getting into the Ottoman Palace and being one of the apprentice of Sinan, one of the biggest architects of Ottoman Empire. Even if I got to the end hard by forcing myself to end it, reading this was more enjoyable than Efsane, which was about a time of Ottomon Empire's navy. The story gave me the taste of known fantasy point of view to the Ottomon Empire that used a lot in books or movies.

Girugamesh ギルガメッシュ, Incomplete

Yiruma & Henry, River Flows in You

이드 피트르

일요일에 여동생과 나는 마을에 갔어요.

월요일에 간곳은 이드 피트르이었어요.

우리는 친척을 방문했어요.

내 고향에는 이브의 날만의 전통이 있어요.

이른 아침에 아이들은 사탕을 수집해요 .

칻머르와 바클라바를 요리해요.

  

Bit Palas, Elif Şafak

Laf kalabalığı... cram of words what I thought while reading Bit Palas. An apartment building with 10 residents. The analysis of the characters which you know very well in life, the description of events, the story telling is filled with a lot of words. It is nice but at the same time boring to continue reading it. So in the middle of the book as the chapters got smaller I began to hve a hard time to keep reading after all those long parts in the beginning.
10 stereotype characters came together in an apartment building with no common thing but the awful smell of the garbage and bugs that surrounded the building.



As long as you ignore to be a part of this living concept at some points you find yourselves related with your neighbours.